Post by elliander on Feb 10, 2007 20:15:17 GMT -5
Hello. I am otherkin. I have been awakening for the past few years.
It was something always known. Always felt. I was always able to feel energies and sending them to others as an innate talent, as an example. But never recognized until cirumstances forced me.
In 2003 I started to have visions with my eyes. Fairy Lights were common to see. I saw the shadow of a Crow Rise from bones in the side of a road. In one day, a Black dog with red eyes kept jumping at me then disappearing and that night I went with friends in a vehicle and it jumped into that car and seemed to disappear. That night, smoke filled the sky. As we drove along the length of this busy road, there were fires everywhere. A car fire, a kitchen fire, etc. Each totally different and unrelated, yet there was no other fires except where past we drove. Which led me to believe that this dog was a Negative Aspect of Elemental Fire. Then I started to draw pictures, and in these pictures a star. I wanted to know what the star was, a septagram, and it led me to learn about otherkin where then I met people I had not known in lifetimes past. Even a few fullflooded elves, who knew me well. It was a heart warming experiance to feel as if I have found home, or some trave of it. Something which filled a vacuum deep in my chest.
But the strangest part was that I met them all in visions a few months before finding them on-line. And then I began to form relationships in this way. Hearing a sound of breaking glass, for example, then writing about it and having someone realize it was them I was empathing.
But there were allot of bumps too. The more open I became, the more the unbalanced traits of my own being came forward to be dealt with. This has had detrimental impacts on relationships.
I learned that as I grew into myself, I could feel more. I could do more. But became hypersensative. Which ironically woorsened chiropractic issues. Experiancing phantom limb of wings has caused my body to respond. Very painful. At first I thought I was growing something. Even chiropractors noticed a strange point of something that should not be there. But now I am more inclined to believe that the muscles have responded to the sensation of wings which in turn caused the bones to be pulled out of allignment.
But with that same sensativity, I have helped many people. I would not trade it for the world.
...
Eventually I came to find there are genetic traits affecting me too. I started to see tall slender reptile like figures walking in mist that no one else could see. Then I had these dreams. I would end up in this school. It looks like it used to be an estate at one time. I am moving with an odd sense of gravity, as if drifting, then students walk through the halls and see me. I am surprised that they could see me and "run" down the hall where I meet a woman who is trying to get me to help her with something. Ever since that dream, I had several others along a similar theme. A woman, or a man. Sometimes they look at me with hatred, other times they are trying to get me to help them. The strangest case of this was a dream where I was an alley way and inside a woman explained to me these "plans" which in the dream I found myself agreeing with. Over the course of the dream, I changed shape into a very thick and muscular reptillian and found myself agreeing with them. But when I woke up, I could not remember the details. It was as if I was blocked from remembering, and only remembered that it was something my waking self would not agree with.
Then learned about the reptillian conspiracy theory.
(which I keep posted on my vMix page: www.vmix.com/view.php?id=294178¤t_resourceid=294178&type=video )
And so I read the book "The Biggest Secret" by David Icke.
But it did not add up for me. Why would they be interested in me? I then figured it out. It is only a theory of mine, but is the best explanation I could come up with.
I believe that as a person awakens - human or not. Higher dimensional energy flows into them, which was before blocked. First your mind is affected. You become closer to your own higher state whatever it may be. Then as you resonate with it, your genetics may even change. There have been books writtten on the topic of extra dimensional genetics (such as, "The power of 12" by Anne Brewer (www.annebrewer.com/productsa.htm), but I believe that these extra dimensional genetics may in fact affect the physical over time, as if your body has to reflect the astral form. A change in one consistant over time would cause a change in the other.
I then figured that if I am opening closed genetic information, what would happen if I already have the genetic qualities of a physical race, but not enough of them to be active? Could they really become active? I think as they become more active, I am connecting more with the reptillian conciousness. (I wish I knew how to block them out though. If anyone has any suggestions I would appreciate it.)
To help validate my theories, I perform experiments on how matter affects energies and vice versa and take photos. Then I post them on my photostream. I caught on 35mm film Fairies and rips in space. Link in profile.
...
A recent sensation, something new, which has come over me within the past few months I don't know what to make of and hope someone could recognize it. I have been feeling very weak, lack of energy. I would be in bed for long periods of time and not be very active. I would not be very hungry. Maybe 1 meal a day I would eat very slowly. I then started to have very strong cravings for meat. But not just. Like I would feel the need to rip through meat with my teeth. And I would need to bite something or would unconciously grind my teeth. But by nature, I have always preferred vegetables. My natural response is that I am probably just lacking enough meat. But I am not all that hungry for meat. Would anyone have any suggestions on what I should do or what this could be?
It was something always known. Always felt. I was always able to feel energies and sending them to others as an innate talent, as an example. But never recognized until cirumstances forced me.
In 2003 I started to have visions with my eyes. Fairy Lights were common to see. I saw the shadow of a Crow Rise from bones in the side of a road. In one day, a Black dog with red eyes kept jumping at me then disappearing and that night I went with friends in a vehicle and it jumped into that car and seemed to disappear. That night, smoke filled the sky. As we drove along the length of this busy road, there were fires everywhere. A car fire, a kitchen fire, etc. Each totally different and unrelated, yet there was no other fires except where past we drove. Which led me to believe that this dog was a Negative Aspect of Elemental Fire. Then I started to draw pictures, and in these pictures a star. I wanted to know what the star was, a septagram, and it led me to learn about otherkin where then I met people I had not known in lifetimes past. Even a few fullflooded elves, who knew me well. It was a heart warming experiance to feel as if I have found home, or some trave of it. Something which filled a vacuum deep in my chest.
But the strangest part was that I met them all in visions a few months before finding them on-line. And then I began to form relationships in this way. Hearing a sound of breaking glass, for example, then writing about it and having someone realize it was them I was empathing.
But there were allot of bumps too. The more open I became, the more the unbalanced traits of my own being came forward to be dealt with. This has had detrimental impacts on relationships.
I learned that as I grew into myself, I could feel more. I could do more. But became hypersensative. Which ironically woorsened chiropractic issues. Experiancing phantom limb of wings has caused my body to respond. Very painful. At first I thought I was growing something. Even chiropractors noticed a strange point of something that should not be there. But now I am more inclined to believe that the muscles have responded to the sensation of wings which in turn caused the bones to be pulled out of allignment.
But with that same sensativity, I have helped many people. I would not trade it for the world.
...
Eventually I came to find there are genetic traits affecting me too. I started to see tall slender reptile like figures walking in mist that no one else could see. Then I had these dreams. I would end up in this school. It looks like it used to be an estate at one time. I am moving with an odd sense of gravity, as if drifting, then students walk through the halls and see me. I am surprised that they could see me and "run" down the hall where I meet a woman who is trying to get me to help her with something. Ever since that dream, I had several others along a similar theme. A woman, or a man. Sometimes they look at me with hatred, other times they are trying to get me to help them. The strangest case of this was a dream where I was an alley way and inside a woman explained to me these "plans" which in the dream I found myself agreeing with. Over the course of the dream, I changed shape into a very thick and muscular reptillian and found myself agreeing with them. But when I woke up, I could not remember the details. It was as if I was blocked from remembering, and only remembered that it was something my waking self would not agree with.
Then learned about the reptillian conspiracy theory.
(which I keep posted on my vMix page: www.vmix.com/view.php?id=294178¤t_resourceid=294178&type=video )
And so I read the book "The Biggest Secret" by David Icke.
But it did not add up for me. Why would they be interested in me? I then figured it out. It is only a theory of mine, but is the best explanation I could come up with.
I believe that as a person awakens - human or not. Higher dimensional energy flows into them, which was before blocked. First your mind is affected. You become closer to your own higher state whatever it may be. Then as you resonate with it, your genetics may even change. There have been books writtten on the topic of extra dimensional genetics (such as, "The power of 12" by Anne Brewer (www.annebrewer.com/productsa.htm), but I believe that these extra dimensional genetics may in fact affect the physical over time, as if your body has to reflect the astral form. A change in one consistant over time would cause a change in the other.
I then figured that if I am opening closed genetic information, what would happen if I already have the genetic qualities of a physical race, but not enough of them to be active? Could they really become active? I think as they become more active, I am connecting more with the reptillian conciousness. (I wish I knew how to block them out though. If anyone has any suggestions I would appreciate it.)
To help validate my theories, I perform experiments on how matter affects energies and vice versa and take photos. Then I post them on my photostream. I caught on 35mm film Fairies and rips in space. Link in profile.
...
A recent sensation, something new, which has come over me within the past few months I don't know what to make of and hope someone could recognize it. I have been feeling very weak, lack of energy. I would be in bed for long periods of time and not be very active. I would not be very hungry. Maybe 1 meal a day I would eat very slowly. I then started to have very strong cravings for meat. But not just. Like I would feel the need to rip through meat with my teeth. And I would need to bite something or would unconciously grind my teeth. But by nature, I have always preferred vegetables. My natural response is that I am probably just lacking enough meat. But I am not all that hungry for meat. Would anyone have any suggestions on what I should do or what this could be?