Post by LONGGONEDEADFORUMS on Apr 24, 2004 9:48:36 GMT -5
Firstly, I want to clarify that not everyone has had memories, past-life or otherwise, as part of their Awakening. I'm not trying to be a smart-ass; I just want to introduce you to a concept that's not always immediately obvious. I can name two or three people I know personally, and I'm sure there are plenty more that I don't know as well, whose entire Otherkin identity revolves around what they are now. Some have a vague impression of the past, and some even lack that. This is acceptable insofar as considering oneself Otherkin.
I started remembering who I was at the very end of a Kinvention North, one of the largest and most high-profile Otherkin gatherings. I was about seven years old, drunk, and giddy with the idea that for the first time in my life, I was in a room with 20 or 30 people and they all liked me. The previous day, I'd had a seemingly innocuous Reiki demonstration performed on me, and I'm still not sure how relevant that was. Something set me off and I freaked out, and spent the next couple of hours in a state of terror and incoherence. My friends helped me through it, and when I'd calmed down, I realised that I was now looking at my entire previous life, every excrutiating detail of it. That was two years ago. Now I'm 40-ish and ever since that day I've been sorting through trauma and trial, coming to terms with all my leftover baggage, and I think by now I can rightfully say I've made a dent.
(You may have noticed that the math doesn't add up. That's because I age bounce. I haven't been reborn since my last life and I'm taking up space in someone else's body, so I can do that easily. I can be any age I like, because in reality I'm not an age at all.)
To start the rememory process, you could put yourself in a situation so stressful that you crack under the pressure and hope that what cracks is your buried memories. I don't recommend it. I'd suggest getting drunk, but I have a very unique reaction to alcohol, and most people wouldn't have quite the same experience. More seriously, you can try meditation, research (read other people's accounts and see if your memory gets jogged), see a Reiki practitioner or a past-life regression specialist, or maybe just a friend with Sight or psychic abilities.
Now for the words of caution: first, don't rely on what anyone else tells you. You may use Tarot readings or whatever as clues, but only you can know your true nature. Second, you need a good balance of faith and skepticism. Don't be doubting everything. Question and examine everything, but give yourself a chance to accept it as true. Listen to your instincts. I find that the truths will keep coming back, even if you try to deny them - use this feature as a way to identify them.
And last and most importantly: be patient. Don't be in a hurry. You might have to wait years before you get that really big revelation, and it's more likely you'll have to be satisfied with occasional small ones. Don't agonise over lack of results. Anything worth getting is worth working for, and when you're good and ready, your subconscious will be perfectly happy to relinquish the information. Trust its judgment. Don't compare yourself with others on this list, because everyone works at their own pace - and some have been struggling to remember for many years. Enjoy the journey. Actually, write that in big letters and tape it to your wall: ENJOY THE JOURNEY. Because once you start making progress, these will be the good ol' days. You will never again be who you are now. Cherish every step of the process, and pat yourself on the back every time you survive an Awakening crisis. The destination isn't half as important.
With these words I bit you good luck and many good experiences.
Dominic Tocosar
I started remembering who I was at the very end of a Kinvention North, one of the largest and most high-profile Otherkin gatherings. I was about seven years old, drunk, and giddy with the idea that for the first time in my life, I was in a room with 20 or 30 people and they all liked me. The previous day, I'd had a seemingly innocuous Reiki demonstration performed on me, and I'm still not sure how relevant that was. Something set me off and I freaked out, and spent the next couple of hours in a state of terror and incoherence. My friends helped me through it, and when I'd calmed down, I realised that I was now looking at my entire previous life, every excrutiating detail of it. That was two years ago. Now I'm 40-ish and ever since that day I've been sorting through trauma and trial, coming to terms with all my leftover baggage, and I think by now I can rightfully say I've made a dent.
(You may have noticed that the math doesn't add up. That's because I age bounce. I haven't been reborn since my last life and I'm taking up space in someone else's body, so I can do that easily. I can be any age I like, because in reality I'm not an age at all.)
To start the rememory process, you could put yourself in a situation so stressful that you crack under the pressure and hope that what cracks is your buried memories. I don't recommend it. I'd suggest getting drunk, but I have a very unique reaction to alcohol, and most people wouldn't have quite the same experience. More seriously, you can try meditation, research (read other people's accounts and see if your memory gets jogged), see a Reiki practitioner or a past-life regression specialist, or maybe just a friend with Sight or psychic abilities.
Now for the words of caution: first, don't rely on what anyone else tells you. You may use Tarot readings or whatever as clues, but only you can know your true nature. Second, you need a good balance of faith and skepticism. Don't be doubting everything. Question and examine everything, but give yourself a chance to accept it as true. Listen to your instincts. I find that the truths will keep coming back, even if you try to deny them - use this feature as a way to identify them.
And last and most importantly: be patient. Don't be in a hurry. You might have to wait years before you get that really big revelation, and it's more likely you'll have to be satisfied with occasional small ones. Don't agonise over lack of results. Anything worth getting is worth working for, and when you're good and ready, your subconscious will be perfectly happy to relinquish the information. Trust its judgment. Don't compare yourself with others on this list, because everyone works at their own pace - and some have been struggling to remember for many years. Enjoy the journey. Actually, write that in big letters and tape it to your wall: ENJOY THE JOURNEY. Because once you start making progress, these will be the good ol' days. You will never again be who you are now. Cherish every step of the process, and pat yourself on the back every time you survive an Awakening crisis. The destination isn't half as important.
With these words I bit you good luck and many good experiences.
Dominic Tocosar
<.< I really wouldn't recomend the getting drunk part