Post by batbreakr on Apr 14, 2013 2:52:10 GMT -5
Yes, I am new here. I have never bothered to classify myself. Well, til now that is. Initially what I experienced was slight in nature, such as the ability to manipulate my dreams and to slip into a purely instinctive state of being when I allowed myself to do so. These things I found while at times problematic, overall to be helpful to me. I enlisted in the Army, and after being discharged I began to have problems with what I had previously enjoyed. The purely instinctive state of being devolved, instead of merely being in that frame of mind with little physical changes I began to fall into the state I believe you classify as "Berserker". Also, my dreams have nearly become impossible to manipulate, and the berserker state is like a second being within me. I must constantly refrain from allowing it to surge, once it does I am a hazard to those around me and not the sort of being that a person would wish to even encounter. As such, I am increasingly finding human interaction difficult, and when I am forced to prolong interaction I develop symptoms of extreme stress, headaches and physical pain that increase dramatically with time. Do I wish for pity or condolences? No I do not. I am working to develop methods of minimizing the damage, and at increasing my levels of control. What I do want, however, is to hopefully touch base with people who at least understand my situation. I need to learn as much as possible, and hopefully that can be aided by what information I can glean here on this forum. Thank you for reading, I do hope my statements are not off-putting too badly. ---BatBreakr